Maybe you don’t know, but i have this blog to remember to myself and to other people that there is an amazing and great world out there. My life is awful, I have a father and screaming horrible things at me that doesn’t love me and and screaming horrible things to me. I tried suicide 5 times, and I just didn’t it because I believe that I deserve a chance to live. But I’m too weak to do anything. The only thing I ca do is be in bed all day. My dream is to be a doctor, but I don’t have motivation, and my mom do nothing to change this shit. I still think, I can kill myself. But all this is so unfair, I’m weak.